God I miss dancing. I hope Baby E will love to move. Fingers crossed she will want to make fun little dance routines with me. I had a doctor's appointment today and ended up having to have a nonstress test. They tracked her movements, heart rate, and even contractions (apparently I had contractions!?) This girl certainly moves more when she has food or when I'm trying to sleep ha!
I recommend doing all that you can to avoid getting sick with the you know what (c word) while prego. They mentioned induction at 39 weeks and that is certainly not part of my birth "preferences." I hesitate to use the word "plan," because I know things happen and I want to be open minded. As long as weekly NSTs look good, I can avoid that.
I am used to controlling every aspect of my life and career. There are so many unknowns and things that can go wrong with health and pregnancy though. Things beyond our control. That is not exactly great for the type A perfectionist dancer. I have always been so in touch with my body. However, you can do everything right and things can still differ from your plan.
We went over what my preferences are. It is important to me that I am able to move as much as possible. I don't stop moving in daily life so why would I want to in this? I am not opposed to getting the epidural, but I want to try my best to avoid it. I can't imagine being confined to the bed or not being able to feel my body and be in control. I am aware that everyone thinks I'm insane and I could very well decide I want the drugs, but I would prefer to give it my best effort first.
It's a crazy thing to be a lifelong dancer and then decide to have a baby. Like I have said a million times, I have no intention of quitting. Things will look a lot different, but I know I will find my way back. The physical changes haven't bothered me much fortunately. I have actually appreciated this break from constantly thinking about how I look or the next audition or performance. A lot of the burnout I felt for so long has dissipated. I think it had a lot to do with constant travel this year, which I was grateful to do, but it does wear you down. When something you have loved so much for so long starts to feel like a chore or just a job, you know it's time for a break. I want to be back in class now. I WANT to dance. Not just for work, but because I LOVE it. I am very much looking forward to gaining my strength, stamina, and technique back slowly and safely.
Max and I will start moving closer to Tampa this week. We have a little overlap between our current lease and the new one fortunately. She will be born in St. Pete and then we will head across the bridge by early February. St. Pete has been amazing and we have so many great memories here, but it is time for a change. I can't wait to decorate her room! I found some inspo on Pinterest and will definitely share on here and Youtube eventually. Realistically, we could have a small human with us in like 2 weeks.
Very much looking forward to Baby E's debut. Stay tuned.
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